Some things I was thinking about last night....

Well, last night as I was lying awake trying not to freak out and I was thinking about some things. I started writing this in my head, but I'm pretty sure that it sounded better last night than it will right now.
Last night I felt like I was being hit by a fire hydrant turned on full blast. I've got post graduation anxiety (obviously if you read what I wrote last night!). The future is endless. I can do anything I want. I'm having the worst time with it because it took me so long to finish school that I kept feeling that I didn't want to plan anything after graduation because it was so far away. And now here I sit, the after graduation right in front of me and I start feeling anxious.
And the worst part? The worst part isn't even the post graduation anxiety. School and work are a lot less stressful than the rest of my life I decided. They're just an easy way to forget about all the other stuff. All the other stuff has people involved and I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or let anyone know how I'm feeling.....How screwed up am I? I guess I'll finish these thoughts later; they're getting way to deep for Megan right now.